Irony of life

7/7/2015

The day of my first doctor appointment to confirm my pregnancy! It is a special day... I saw my baby's heartbeat for the first time. The same day I learned that my Grandma Amparo passed away. 

And I was like hearing Alannis Morrisette singing... "Isn't it ironic? Don't you think??"

I was weeping at the doctor's office while I watch my baby's heartbeat. The news about my grandma was heartbreaking, but seeing a new life inside me is also uplifting.

And then the sound of The Verve's "Bittersweet symphony" played in my head..

The Phantom of The Opera

7/18/2015

We went to see The phantom of The Opera at The Pantages. This is my favorite musical because the songs makes me fall in love again and again and again. I wish I can watch this show without weeping!!! 

Prenancy Announcement

Sharing my pregnancy news to friends and family..

7/18/2015 
Since my sister-in-law is in LA and visiting us. When she came to visit our tiny apartment, we gave her a letter and a handcraft chalk board with baby's ultrasound. She was the first to know in the family. And se was so happy and excited about it. She's even started making us a baby blanket.

7/19/2015
I don't know how to tell my brother so I talked to his girlfriend instead, told her I'm pregnant and if she can give my letter to my brother and also the ultrasound picture. After 2 hours, my brother then texted me about it and he's excited to be an uncle too!

7/27/15
I accidentally told my mom. I meant to tell her but not at this kind of timing. This is what happened--- My Aunt Lisa is visiting my parents house and since I call my mom almost daily she called Aunt lisa and have her talk to me. Then Aunt Lisa keeps on asking me when I'm going to have a baby, I couldn't actually lie, told her "soon, next year". She then told my mom. My mom was like " Are you on the way?".... Now should I lie about it?? Of course I told her yes!!!


7/30/2015
We went out for a dinner at Grissini with my husband's mom and step-dad and also sister-in-law and boyfriend. I gave my mom-in-law a baby clothes. Funny this is that she could not figure out what it is until Step-dad in law told her it's a baby clothe. I guess my mom-in law ran out of words to say sine she looks very confused. Until we gave her the ultrasound copy on a frame with caption "Hello Grandpa and Grandma, I'll see you soon!" Then she started crying. 

8/2/2015
After my syncopal episode from church, we went out to have lunch with my dad-in-law and my husband's grandparents. We went to Din Tai Fung in Glendale. We just popped out the photo to his dad saying he's going to be a grandpa. Of course he looks surprised. His grandparents were also happy about it and gave me some advises. 

Positive Pregnancy Test

What triggered me to do a pregnancy test?

Let's start of with the symptoms of breast fullness and migraine that I felt, I thought "I must be having my period but it's been more than a week now." 

During Memorial Day 2015, I was cleaning my closet and saw some pregnancy tests strips. Without further ado, I tested myself. Then i saw 2 lines indicating that it is positive. I was surprise to see the 2 lines forming, but then I kind of did expect it to be positive. 

What did I feel?
It was mixed emotions of fear, anxiety and happiness. Fear that I may not be a able to take good care of myself and the baby in the future. Anxiety that I have no idea what to do about it. Happiness, I don't know but it does brought me joy. 

Syncopal Episode

On 8/2/2015 my husband and I went to church a few miles away from our place. Unexpectedly while we were kneeling, I suddenly felt dizzy, I told my husband that I'm going to sit because of my dizziness then after a few seconds of sitting.... and the sound of the priest is getting tinier.. my vision is like getting darker and darker. I told my husband that I'm about to faint and need to get out of the church at once. I was able to manage to walk towards the exit and upon inhaling fresh air, it felt better. 

One mistake I did was that I went to church on an empty stomach. I'm not sure what caused my syncopal spells, it could be hypoglycemia, or the church was not properly ventilated.. or maybe it was my blood pressure dropping. 

I told my mom about it, told me that it does happen to her when she was pregnant.. I guess it runs in the family.